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***this post is mainly to get things out of my system and for my future self.***

With that being said, I'd like to say, there's someone quite special in my life right now. I met them randomly on instagram, then later on snap chat and we've been talking since December of 2014. So for about 4 months now. At first I was iffy about it all. i didn't want to feel anything or catch any feelings for this person whatsoever. I merely just talked to them because I found them interesting. I remember having this wall up and no matter what this person said or try to do to break through it I wouldn't give in. they'd ask me personal questions to try and get to know me better and I'd simply just blow it off and ignore it because I didn't want anything serious. it went like this for about mid almost late December. I remember being at work and thinking about this person and catching myself smiling at the thought of them and the conversations we had. I would get extremely excited to see their name pop up on a text message and my stomach would get all tingly and twirl. one night I slowly told them I had a crush on them and they did too and it couldn't have gone any better. Ive gotten to love and respect everything about them as a person. I feel like there is a sense of hope for people who get out of long term relationships and feel like they'll never feel those butterflies when they hear them talk, or laugh and talk on the phone for hours on end. there is hope and sometimes that means bringing and slowly tearing down that wall you build for yourself from others because maybe, you'll find someone worth it all.